Breakups

I constantly have you on my mind. Whether I just woke up, whether I'm cooking dinner or whether I'm showering after a long day, you are always on my mind. I find things in my daily life constantly relating to you and no matter what I do, I can't change that. I miss you... I do but my missing you is not a good enough reason for the two of us to get back together. I loved you, well at least I think I loved you. I never told you because you never told me. Letting my pride and cowardliness get in the way, I broke up with you due to a fear of getting too close to someone who may actually be good for me. You were never anything but a perfect gentleman towards me. I've been screwed over too many times in my past to realize when I have finally found a good, decent guy. You were, well are perfect... you have a bright future, you have a loving family, you have a huge, kind heart and hell you like me. I kept trying to convince myself you were the problem in our relationship when in reality it was me the entire time. I've come to realize I am a very difficult person to love. From my rollercoaster of emotions to my obsession with nearly everything, I can be a handful. You were willing to look past my flaws and straight into my heart. You wanted me the way I was without ever changing anything about myself. I didn't know this until you because every other guy I was even involved with was mainly due to their looks but you were my perfect guy. Not because you have great hair or beautiful eyes or a nice body but because your personality, sense of humor and constant love is like nothing I have ever found in another man. All I can ask for now is for us to find our way back to each other if that is what's meant to be.