Rejection

I’m not good with expressing my feelings. Well, I am but not out loud. I can write my feelings down until they fill a novel but I would never be able to tell you how I feel to your face. I’m good with words until it comes to speaking them. I guess that’s probably one of my greatest flaws. Example, if I develop feelings towards someone, I would be able to text them about those feelings but I would not be able to walk up to them and express myself in person or over a phone call for that matter. I think it is because I fear rejection. It’s easy to get rejected over text. Simple, delete the persons number or block them on social media. Over and done with. I suppose if you were expressing yourself over a phone call you could just hang up, block their number and never speak to them again if things didn’t go your way but, in person it’s totally different. If you’re rejected in person you have to walk away or continue spending time with that person until you can actually get away from him/her. It’s terrifying. You feel humiliated for being rejected, devastated, scared, possibly all three. All horrible feelings to have. I’m not stable enough to experience those feelings all at once so I don’t think I’ll ever express myself in person.